I'm totally trying to get use to just being in another country which in itself is weird enough... however, it gets a bit more difficult when things quit working on me. So far, I'm trying to figure out why my nintendo won't charge... next is my powerpoint working up on my mac... and now, i can't move my pictures out of my memory card to my hard-drive. Problems with my nintendo could be fixed in a way that I can get the Korean adapter so that i can charge it, but it's a bit harder to fix my porblems with my computer and such because no on in Korea seems to own a mac unless they have been to the USA or outside of Korea for a bit.

I know the irrationality of being angry with my electronics... but it's so easier to be mad at it because my electronics can still understand me while the people just seem to be confused by me getting mad.
-_-;;

As for just adjusting... I can totally say that TV is more helpful than the people I run into. I think people around my neighborhood are slowly beginning to understand that I won't get things a lot because I am not from Korea. So far, the local pizza joint and convenient store girl are more natural about me coming in and understanding zero of their Korean that is in like 80% of local Tae-gu dialect... on happier note, Koreans outside of Tae-gu area can't even really get their dialect so I don't feel like a complete moron.
x_x

I'm trying to send pictures and stuff back home and stuff, but so far, it's a bit more difficult without much time... and doing it middle of the night seems to make it a waste of time somehow.
... I think I just totally found something to do on my next day off...
^_^;;

I don't know how to feel tired. It's so weird because my body literally has to show signs that I'm tired and that I need a rest. In a good way, it's a good thing that people in my family show physical outbreaks when they are over-exhausted. I'm one of the members that really can't tell if I'm tired or not because my mind is always on the go, so my body has a hard time catching up. Now that my body is totally breaking out the rashes, I know that I should just take one day to just sleep... but of course, that won't happen until this training finally ends.
~Of course, by the time I have the chance to rest, school begins and I actually start working... I think this is where I go, "Great joy." 

I can also use the break to catch up on posting pictures and send pictures of what has been happening to me in Korea.
~I so can appreciate that my parents aren't yellers if I don't call or send emails (w/ pictures) due to being so busy. I mean, I know that they really want us to be trained, but the training thing is absolutely non-stop. Just having our schedule doesn't allow us to do the carousing and drinking that they don't want us to do.

Even doing postings and keeping up with people, I've been doing them during classes or through the short breaks that they give us in between the hours and hours of classes that goes back to back. In so many ways, the things they teach are common sense and it's like review on how to interact with children. My problem is... I got a bit of both. Not to mention I have guinea pigs to test teaching material on... I think I'm suppose to call them 'cousins'. >_< hehe

The days that they give 'breaks'... they make us do activities and go to places and keep on moving.
... In so many words, their 'breaks' aren't really breaks. In fact, even during 'rest' time, I think they're trying to over-exhaust us. Of course, people still find a way to smuggle in alcohol and do some drinking parties.

For now, I'm totally glad my co-Korean scholar is a staff member. I already met her and interacted with her... of course, now I might have to buy her dinner... Thank God she knows that I'm poor and broke.

~sigh~
Class is starting again... at least a part where everyone should pay attention.
T_T

I really should learn how to post pictures and videos on this thing...

So far, I can figure out how to put pictures onto this thing, but I really need to figure out how to do it differently... so many pictures, so little time... not to mention, now that I found my video camera and my charger (now if I can find my spare battery...) I would also be shooting videos.

Korea so far have been trips about training for teaching, watching all the memories and so forth.
~~ not to mention they're making us sing and dance (for anyone who doesn't know me very well... I so can't do either very well ^_^;;

I'm going to try to post up as much as I can as time goes... and when I get the free time.

People back home at the states... would be nice to hear from you occasionally...
^_^v

Looks like it's finally that time. I actually got the job and I'm actually in Korea to prove that I did get the job. So far, I've been barely here for two days, yet I've done enough to spend time with family.

This program that I'm working for is obviously not run very well... it's amazing that it's even functioning when one looks at it. However, it's running and I'm a proof that something is going right somewhere. They give us crappy instructions, half-assed explanations (if any at all), and it's already becoming clique~y. However, now I can't care... I'm already in, so until I do something really stupid or really disfunctional, I won't be kicked off.

Ever since I got here the thing with the program it's really been surreal... but it's also been fun hanging out with my family here in Korea... even if some does make me question my sanity. In so many ways... where some of my main relatives live in Korea reminds me so much of Illinois that I feel like in a few moments that I'm still back in the States. Then I see the things that are so Korean and I remember that I'm no longer in the States... if that makes sense to anyone.

Check out some pictures... some were because I was bored, some due to my nature mode, and some for just the sights


















... I hope to get more pictures both random and planned as the year goes on. It's going to see how much interesting this whole experience will be.

Laters all
^_^v

I think I'm finally escaping the surreal moments and actually noticing that I'll be gone from this country for a year. And after all the shopping and everything else I'm doing for this new moment in my life, I just see one thing:
KOREA IS ONE OF THE MOST SUPERFICIAL COUNTRIES TO EVER EXIST!!!!!
I know that I can't dress outrageously and that Korea is still very conservative... but the dress code is too outrageous. What sort of elementary school teacher... anywhere on this planet... wears dresses they can barely move in to take care of children? Also, the clothes have to be actually a bit popular and fashionable. I know I'm not really a huge fashionista... or any sort of fashionista if I think about it... but some of the fashions they want... Korean society really is really crazy.

With the beginning of packing the bags, buying the last minute supplies... it semi-hit me that I'll be leaving on a plane once again to depart to something new... again. In so many ways, I'm more excited than nervous... I don't think the nervous thing will hit until I officially land or on the actual first day of when I enter a classroom to work. 
Of course... after going through the whole plane thing with university, the airplane trip is the one part that I wish I could do without. All of my friends know this without a doubt... I HATE AIRPLANES!!! It's fun to watch people... but there is so much that people can entertain me with on a plane. But after so long... the entertainment can get annoying... especially the kids.

*Sigh*

Now that I've taken the steps to begin, might as well begin.
I do have my doubts about what is happening... what will happen... but somehow, despite anything, moving forward will continue... even if it becomes hard as hell. But then again, I tended to thrive against adversity working against me. I know that things to come will be very different from one experience to the next... but like the saying goes, "Bring it all on."

^_^v

"Alex... you must be so nervous!!!" "Alex, you must be happy!!" "Alex... aren't you so excited?!?!"

Now that I'm starting another part of life... people have to question about my start, and what I'm ending. It's fall again, so now I feel that I should leave home... whether it is to study or get a job... something has to make me feel busy again. Now that I got a "semi" acceptance for a job, I'm ready to go and get ready... to do something again.
Right now, I just can't get myself to feel for it though. When people ask me why I'm not feeling anything, I reply, "I'm not going to feel anything until I actually walk into a classroom... until I start my first day... when I know and it hits me that I have a job... something to do." Of course, no one gets that answer. For me, things don't click and I don't react until it's actually happening. I'm a reactive person... so until the action is actually done, I have no idea how to react.

But yea...
it's official... I got a job. I will have something to do when September begins. Of course I love being home and all... but going to Korea for this job... it will totally be a new experience for me. A new experience that I will hate, love, and most likely want to kill someone at the end of.
One thing about this job... being a teacher, I would think that people would be more interested about what kind of teacher I will be. HOWEVER, it seems that people are more interested about what kind of representative I will be for the program. I know that as a teacher for the program I am a representative for the program. But as a teacher, I feel that my first priority when I start would be my students. People mentioned that I should care about what I wear, how I present myself, how I should speak in front of others. But in my mind... I'm teaching elementary students... when that is the case, I will be wearing clothes that let me move freely to keep up with my students, to make sure that I can take care of them while they are in my care. I have learned about the education systems, despite the countries and cultural difference, that when one is a teacher, students will always come first.
I just hope that my "semi" status will be changed to just plain old hired. I've applied and gotten interviewed... twice... so now, I just want to get the job and keep it. My last bosses liked me, I'm just hoping my future employers would feel the same way... or like me better than their predecessors.

So now until I get to Korea... I'm not going to believe that this is real... just surreal. Of course, the plane ride will jolt me to the reality... along with me remembering how much I 'love' flying with people, being in airports, and eating airplane food that they provide on the longer rides.
It's going to be a fun trip to the job.

Hopefully there would be more to come concerning my experiences in Korea... also with visuals when I use my first paycheck to get a serviceable digital camera. I'll have videos here and there, but I'll be totally taking it back home at the end of the year when my job contract is through. Time to realize that I need to have visuals along with the written works.

*SIGH*

the application process is almost done... thank the higher powers!! i swear this application thing isn't a process... it's a way to suck the soul!! but now that the interview portion is over, i'm thinking that i'm finally beginning to feel something about getting a job. but after having jobs for a while... it doesn't seem really that much of a big deal in getting a job. it would just be really horrible if i don't get the job when the interviewer seemed to like me.

now is a time to get away from home again. i'm so use to staying here for the summers, but not being here the rest of the time... i'm not sure if i'm going to be use to being in california again. plus as soon as summer is over, i most likely have that urge to roam once again. i know many people want me to stay in california a bit (mostly family members who love to drive me crazy)... but i got use to going to different places, staying in different places.

i think also, after being away for a while, i'm use to being a lot more independent. that's why when i come home for breaks, i like being immature, not having responsibilities, enjoy not having to do something. when i go back to school, i go back to studying, going to classes, going to one or the other jobs, if i have free time, i'm meeting up for projects or assignments or some paper. but when i come home, no one seems to understand that when i come on vacation, i really do vacation. but when vacation ends, i get my ass up and move like crazy again... great joy.

out of four years of vacation... my graduation vacation should really be a vacation... but so far, no such luck for me. i get sick, my parents think i'm doing nothing when i've been going through internet looking for jobs that i could do, i get belittled, half the time my family doesn't notice when i don't do anything for them when i do things... god, the list can go on just to drive me even more insane. i think the only thing i got done in between the things that drove me crazy was catch up on television. and catching up on television most likely lowered my iq... and many reasons for that considering today's programming. so in between getting nagged at... my intelligence disappeared during the free time... woo-hoot.

things could get done better for me. let's all pray to whatever higher power that could exist that i would get this job. a year in korea might help me to expand a lot more from where i am now... plus more friends. i'm hoping that having fun will also be included in this job package. i'll be teaching elementary students... so it would feel like more baby-sitting for me in some way... however, being a teacher would definitely be something interesting and something i can always talk about when i'm old and teetering at my grandchildren just to bore them sometimes... hehehe.

I know that summers are totally set for reruns for television... although I haven't seen much television in four years... but the reruns seem so new... until it just goes on and on throughout the entire day. It must rock to be a television executive and be able to afford the vacations that allow them to go away when the reruns start. Unfortunately, us poor people are doomed to suffer the reruns.

I've also noticed that through TV, the general public really seem to treasure stupidity in people. And half the people who get famous on the retarded reality shows that are the most popular at the moment, why they want to publicly display their stupidity like that? It makes me wonder really hard sometimes.

Being sick on and off, I'm surprised that I'm getting use to staying inside longer than usual. This time last year, in Illinois, I was usually outside, at the library, or at these weird random summer fairs every other week... so this year, it just feels weird because it's totally the opposite. My doctors and parents tell me that I'm sick on and off because I graduated and my body is releasing everything it held back while going to school. I think that's a bunch of bull... mainly because I barely understood my body while I was at school.... Anyway, being sick on and off, watching TV is the only escape to outside, and that doesn't speak well for what I'm seeing outside... so fun.

Back to the stupidity of people for their fifteen minutes of fame... the shows themselves are getting stupider by the minute as well. I thought Survivor, Fear Factor, and American Idol were stupid and shallow and boring, but some shows that get to cable gives these shows a good name. MTV actually begins to encourage teenagers to get pregnant young, and their stupid show 16 And Pregnant is the living proof of that. Not only that show, but all these other shows concerning teenagers and babies. There's that, and on idiotic channels like E!, stupid morons like Kendra and the weird unknown families like the Karashidans (or whatever it is) get their own shows to display their lives. I don't know about other people, but watching lives of morons usually makes my IQ drops like crazy when I don't want it to. Let's go America and honoring the stupidity along with capitalism.

I wonder for the future of this country, and mostly all the other countries that want to be like the US... rather stupidly half the time I think. I just hope that in the future, there would be those out there who can understand between the difference between stupid, genius, and the crazy genius... I think crazy genius would be the best.

I guess it's just a ranting of my independent mind along with my great/terrible sense of honesty. I really don't like stupidity... but there's also a fine line between stupidity and genius. People say that myself and many of the friends I have seem very simple... only if those ignorant people knew. Sense I can't stand stupidity, I know none of my friends are stupid, or along those lines that some people accuse them of. I may have friends who does have some self-esteem issues, but none of them can be categorized as stupid or something along those lines. I like to hide my intelligence and let people know when they start realizing they're making themselves look like idiots when they underestimate me... my roommate in college accused me that I do it often... but she loved it because it made her laugh half the time... good or bad? I think that each of my friends are smart in their own ways... and due to people underestimating them... they just don't realize the power that they can have in control... or just are way too nice of people to do anything when they notice. (Yes Miyu, you are also an example of too nice btw.) So no wonder I hate modern television shows, they are so insulting me by making me think stupid shit, and I can't handle that. And if I can't handle stupidity around me by real people... what makes these television shows think that showing me the stupidity would make me watch their shows? No wonder I like cartoons... they're simple, they have so much subtle insults to real life, and they have exaggerated characters that are actually funny. So while reruns roll, I'm sticking to cartoons and stand-up comedy or just the comedy channel in general where comedians just make fun of everything.

Since I've been writing about stupid, I wonder if my IQ dropped like when I get stuck on the idiotic MTV channel that no longer plays much music as it's suppose to...

i know that deaths are sad and people actually do come out and say... loudly... how much they would miss the deceased. but i swear, there are people who exist who are more annoying in death than they were in life.

i'm sorry that michael jackson is dead... that he didn't live the long life he 'deserved'. but honestly, there is a line between regret and over-compensation. with all the media, life stories, and everything else concerning michael jackson between yesterday when he died and today... and most likely for the rest of the month... michael jackson is now compensated enough for all the jokes, horrible record sales, and everything else people have done to him. i mean seriously... people didn't like him so much when he was alive, but now that he's dead, he's suddenly the hero that people must wail over? i mean... seriously? the guy was one of the biggest idiot that didn't need the media's and public's help on displaying his idiocy. watching him, one must wonder where his education stopped... my guess is around the fourth grade at most. 

i know it is sad that i'm bashing on someone who is dead. but honestly, the dead are dead. nothing can change that, so people should just get over it. but then again, i live in the u.s.a. people would use someone else's death to bring more publicity onto themselves. with michael jackson's death, all these celebrities and music artists... some that people can't really care or remember... suddenly appear to say how close of friends they were to michael jackson. my question is that if they were such 'close' friends, where were they when he was being over-stressed that apparently caused his heart attack? where were they when he was going to court? or hanging that baby out of the balcony? or sexually harrasssing little boys? yup... in the u.s., death is something where someone can grief in public for the publicity.

one could also tell that michael jackson's death really isn't a huge deal because if it was... comedians would be making just as huge deals. despite what many people think about the comedic careers... comedians are a lot more straight-forward about what's happening in the world. hence, the daily show is a lot more informative than normal news... it's more straight-forward while being funny and people can easily pay attention to it. local news is boring and people use it to fall asleep when they're suffering from insomnia. so when comedians couldn't care much michael jackson's death... that itself is making an unusual statement about it.

so yea... i'm just annoyed about michael jackson's never-seeming-to-end death's publicity. i'm also sick of his music videos, life stories, and interviews and people saying how much they would miss him. there is a time to draw the line, and people should've drawn it maybe at most seven hours after his death. the man was an idiot, and his stupidity would be missed because let's face it... when one moron goes, who else would people make fun of? dick cheney? there's so much dick cheney jokes left after all. so when this ends, i would be relieved... and i'm sure i wouldn't be the only one.

-_- yawn

it's been a while since i've just ranted for the fun of it....
there are rants for specific days, specific events, specific times.... but just for the heck of it..... it's been a while.

i think since finishing school, my iq level has dropped some... but i can't help that, it's mostly i think due to the stupid shows i watch on cable television. some things that people would do for money, and not even a lot of money... it's amazing and really stupid. watching these tv shows, i can't really believe that such morons actually do exist in real life... yet sadly, they do, and even more sadly, they are the representations of what american media is to the rest of the world.

oh well...
the world continue to revolves despite the stupid idiots trying to impede the successes of society.

..... that's enough ranting for today... got nothing else to rant about for now.
:P

having birthdays definitely isn't such a huge deal anymore. -_-
there was no huge deal when i turned sixteen, when i turned eighteen, when i turned twenty-one, and those are the 'huge deal' birthdays. personally for me, birthdays are just another indication that a year has gone by and nothing much changed except another year passing. only difference of recognizing that something happened within that year is if something actually had happened.

also, apparently within my birthdays, people think that i want to be younger, so they always guess my age younger than i should be. so far, people really think that i am younger than i am. people don't get the idea that being young isn't fun as people think it is. age actually brings a lot more freedom than when i was little. besides, it's so not fun being checked for id every time i even look at liquor a bit too hard at bars... or even go into bars.

anyhew...
another birthday came and went. just glad it wasn't totally a huge deal like i usually request it to be. i know some people want birthdays acknowledged, but i'm definitely not one of those people. preferably, i would just acknowledge it once saying it's anther year come and done, and thank everyone for the free food that day. but other than that... i say thanks for the acknowledgment, and now the day is done. just hope to survive another year and have fun like i always do. 

^_^v

i'm now actually, finally done with university!! my final paper has now finally been sent!!!
.... now should i feel excited or relieved?
i'm relieved to finally be done, to not have any more university worries. and i'm excited that something new is going to happen now that i finally finished something else in life.

other than excitement and relief, i think i'm also beginning to feel boxed in. i think after being outside of california for a while, i've come to realize that i can adjust in different environments when i need to. and now, i feel like i've seen a lot more, experienced more when i left and saw more of what this country offers. coming back, i feel like i came back to somewhere that have somehow shrunk while i've been away. i still love everyone who lives here, but somehow, the place seems to have not changed while i have... and it's the weirdest feeling in the world.
now that i'm done... i really can't wait to see what else i can do afterwards. i'm sure when i start something new, the weird feeling will disappear becaue i have started something once again.

can't wait
^_^

it's so funny to read online and in schools' papers about how stressed out students can get, how the administrative complains about students becoming whiny at the end. but from my personal point of view, and as research have shown, the administrative really doesn't have any rights about students becoming whiny at them when they become very stressed. the school that the administrative represents after all is what causes the stress and causes students to be whiny. if anyone asks me, i say that school administrations even perpetuate the whiny level of students because they really don't have anything helpful about students getting over stress. all the administration does is repeat a handbook written around the time when dinosaurs first became extinct. so many student rules/regulations doesn't change even when the time does.

... as a soc major who have studied the stress patters and the whiny attitudes of college students, especially around the end of the year, i feel bad when i become part of that whiny population. i think the difference between me and the population i begin to represent is that... i know that i'm becoming a whiny bitch... and after studying it, i know how to do it well without a whole lot of effort. i feel bad afterward because i know how annoying it is to be at the receiving end of it... but honestly, the deans just don't get it. it is obviously that long ago that some of these deans were actually students, and the problems they faced in the past, is similar to situations today, but similar doesn't have the same definition of same. i was up to a point where i just wanted to tell the dean i had to talk to to just shove it all and she should quit her job because she wasn't qualified to be a dean.
-_- oh well... life goes on...

i'm kind of excited to get out of school... and when people ask me if i'll miss it all, they seem so surprised when i ask right back, "am i suppose to?" sure there are things about school i'll miss, like friends, a few memorable professors, and just being a student, but outside of that, i'm more happy to get out of here. i think though, even with my excitement to leave, i still do have little pangs of doubts here and there. i remember when i was graduating from high school at this point. i remember people telling me that i should worry more about my future, that i seemed so carefree and careless.
... i guess i really didn't show back then how much work and effort i literally put into school and everything else. but then again, i knew since i was little that i wasn't really like many others when it came to ending things. sure things that are familiar that are ending can be scary... but i like to think that it would be more fun... which would be the old lady in me i guess.

*deep breaths*

i guess i should work on that future and get back to my final papers and packing.

i'm so sick of going between the many term papers i must complete before graduating. so to get away from the ewww term papers, i just post an entry so that i can still look productive while getting away from the topics of my term papers. my term papers are just so depressing... especially after all the additional research on the topics: rape centers/helping rape victims and chemical poisonings in small towns. (and yes i learned way more about those subjects than i'm even comfortable with.)

i suppose as a current academic, i should look into furthering my education, but to be blunt and honest, i'm sick of learning from school. now i want to go out and see what i can learn from life. people say that you can get a better job with more education... but honestly, i think people should change that opinion quickly. there is no point in hiring someone who can in theory do the work, but have no actual experience to it. if anything, i think many societies are taking the wrong approach when it comes to hiring policies and higher education like universities are taking the stupid way in preparing their grads for the real world. 

for the past years in a university, i have studied real life, so now i can't wait to join real life. but around me, i hear people wanting to go to grad school, go further with education. that just makes me wonder what more they can do with more education. i would rather have experience than more theories because after four years, i am now sick of theories. being socially deviant for so many years amongst my peers, it doesn't bother me that people criticize me for not wanting to further my education. unlike many who pursues further education to either escape the real world or not fully knowing what they want to do with their lives, i want to go to the real world, see what i can do, see if my capabilities are better in application rather than just the theory.

*sigh, sigh*

thinking about it now, when i want to take a break from studying and paper writings, i'm either ramble typing online like this, or watching crime dramas. no wonder i can study creepy things in sociology linked to law and education... looking at the tv shows i enjoy watching. maybe heather is right and i should ease off of the psychopaths, sociopaths, and just plain homocidal maniacs. just ramble writing online is when i get away from society's crazies.

considering how i study society's crazies and know both sides of law and how to teach others... i think if the government came knocking on my door in about a decade charging me with something... i wouldn't be that surprised.

* * *

after taking these breaks, i feel better about going back to writing on the topics of which i've been assigned.

^_^ A~H~H~H~H

Okay.... I really should buck up and try to finish school well... but I'm going to admit easily, "THAT IS TOTALLY IMPOSSIBLE!!!"

It's not that I stopped trying... it's more like I'm in a state between giving up and beyond caring.
I have been looking into what I can do after school, how I can continue to live and not be a total waste to society.... and with a soc degree, being the total waste is the easiest thing to do
With my experience in part-time jobs and my degree that trained me to just totally acknowledge people, I can basically get a decent job... when it deals with people
.... sad part, after studying people for so long for my major, I want to give up people because people have become overrated (unless you are a person who means something to me... in which case, you are so above the curve of humanity in my book).....

I know that this is the stretch toward graduation, but this close to the end, people should just let poor students like me give up and end the studying thing already

I mean, this semester started out somewhat crappy, which should've been a clue for me to realize that this semester would be my worst ever... ironic considering I always thought my last semester should be my best (so much for me being hopeful for the next five years....)
now looking at the end that is coming, I'm becoming more burned out as it begins to close

*shrug*

People say that the worry is all about ending school.... I laugh at that one
I say that the worry begins after ending school.... when you actually walk into the real world and wonder how you want to start your real world experience.

O~K~

I know in the past that I have actively been moot about posting things online, but after a few encouragements from outside sources, I must say that posting things online really is a good way to let out feelings of loose-ends

.... which in a weird way also kinda explains why it's most the outcasts, the misfits, and others who aren't totally accepted likes to post things online

..... anyhew, back to topic....

i think i never liked posting things online in the past because I'll never remember entirely that I have accounts online to do things like that
... hence my facebook, mixi, and myspace (yes, even I of all people had one, but I got rid of it when I just couldn't handle the people I associated through that one, not to mention post-911 crap....) always have been neglected, passwords forgotten (I think I changed my mixi password like 7 times because I couldn't remember it, and my facebook 12 times before I just set it to my computer)

I like to type, typing itself is relaxing, I just never have anything to type about
..... like now, I totally know and acknowledge the fact that I'm type rambling... or is it free-writing (I should have given up on Composition courses so long ago)

Oiii Miyu.....
You're the only one who knows that I have a LiveJournal account, I don't tend to tell people because you know about me and my choice to be antisocial when it comes to people
.... until they can exemplify to me that they are human people in some way
^_^ hehe

final spring break before spring break.... totally feel excited that it's the final one

most people right now are saying that they feel so nostalgic about everything ending and how it was at the beginning... i say to these people.... "we're not that dead yet."

i think i marked my last spring break by how much more i've slept the past week than the last two months previous to it
if it wasn't sleeping, it was based by hospital visits and how many different specialists i had to go and see, from my eyes to skin
*sigh*

..... now i have one thing left now that university part of life is ending....WHAT AM I GOING TO DO AFTERWARD???
i definitely however will see more of the world afterward.... after all, i do know that there is a lot more outside of where i come from, and i'm curious and stubborn enough to go and try to see it as much as i can.... or is it as much as i can be able to afford.... the world is spiraling down when one has to question what one has in her pockets....
it's a shame that the world is no longer as altruistic as it use to be... people are getting greedier and people are a lot more materialistic overall.... it totally sucks that being nice is more overrated today than even four years ago.... and four years ago wasn't even that long ago

hopefully.... i will find something to do after this end
i'm after all one of those people who will try to start something after one end so that i can have more fun
^_^v

I think I finally understand why people actually post blogs and other things online ^_^

as a soc. major, I study about how people overall has lost interest in talking face-to-face with others, but would write down things online that are very personal. the animosity exists to reveal what is thought without people actually knowing who you are... it's almost mad-genius brilliant (whoever thought up of online posting)~_~

at this moment, i think i'm more in a typing mood because it is the last year for school... the time of graduation is here once again
knowing that time is short, doing things last minute now seems pointless... to the true essence of 'blah'
typing things out now, it also kills a time that seems to have slowed down now that the point of an ending has once again appeared

GETTING SENIORITIS SUCKS BIG TIME!!!!!
IT DEFINITELY ONLY EMPHASIZES THE FACT THAT THINGS WILL GO SLOW UNTIL GRADUATION!!
>_<

after three winters in the midwest, i should be use to snow...
^^ LOL
that sounds like a huge joke

i'm somewhat use to the cold weather, the snowing, the ice, and the cold.... but i don't think i will ever get use to the winters of the midwest
besides getting use to the freezing temperature, i also found out that the fun of the cold weather is to also bitch about it like everyone else who lives here
^_^v

also after the bit of cold weather experience, animals going into hibernation mode in the weather are actually smarter than people... cuz the cold can definitely bring out the slowness, laziness, and the 'i-don't-wanna-do-anything'ness out of people
it's sad that people can't hibernate in the winter
-_-

this has to be the first time i posted something in like forever....
and right now, that forever is seven years, roughly rounded ^_^;;

right now, there has to be only one reason on why i'm actually writing anything
.... that would be this 101.2 temperature
.... if that isn't good enough, the good reason could be that i'm most likely high from all these cough halls things

when i'm sick like this, it is the only time i'm thinking about posting any ramblings and actually posting the ramblings
x_x

i guess the only thing to do to get some sleep is to get extremely bored sense i've already slept most of today, and trying to get some more sleep should be good.... one of the many readings i have to do by next week between these four large text book things ought to do the trick
..... i should wish myself well on that one, one of these books is actually interesting ^^;;